Most mornings, I still wake up feeling behind.
The baby’s crying, the sink’s full, my mind’s already running through a list that feels impossible — and before I even sip my coffee, I’m overwhelmed.
Some days, I wonder if I’ll ever actually feel calm again.
Motherhood, money, marriage, trying to build a better life — it all feels like too much sometimes. And I used to think peace would come after the chaos ended… but now, I’m learning it might have to start inside it.
Trying to Find My “Plan”
I don’t have it all figured out — not even close.
But I’ve started noticing that the little things matter more than I thought.
Most mornings, I try to give myself just a few minutes before the day starts. Not to get everything done, but to remind myself that I’m still here — that I matter too.
Lately, that looks like:
- Brewing my Daily Dose coffee ☕ (it’s seriously my small piece of calm — you can check it out here with my code)
- Talking to God and telling him what I’m grateful for.
- Reminding myself: “You don’t have to fix everything today.”
And some mornings? I don’t even make it that far.
But even trying — even showing up for myself in small ways — feels like something.
How It’s Tied to My Finances
This season has taught me that money and peace are connected in ways I didn’t expect.
When I feel scattered, I spend scattered. When I feel calmer, I make better choices.
I’m not debt-free yet.
I’m not living the dream yet.
But I can see progress — small, slow, real progress — and that keeps me going.
It’s not about perfection anymore. It’s about presence.
If You’re in the Middle Too
If you’re still in your own storm — the financial mess, the mental chaos, the mom guilt — you’re not alone. I’m there too.
We don’t have to have it all figured out.
We just have to keep showing up, one small step at a time, and believe that peace will meet us there.
Because maybe freedom isn’t what happens after the hard parts.
Maybe it’s what we build while we’re still standing in them. 🌧️☀️